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I've written this a thousand times before but never like this
I'd like to think I'd be famous for all the letters I've kept

Sometimes I idolise the life that could've been
But then it feels so dumb to think "what if"
So then I just go back to sleep

But by the morning, I find myself writing another one
By the evening I find it futile again and throw it all away

I could tell you how I feel but I'd rather you never know
I don't wanna die alone but I'd rather turn off my phone

I've never been flooded by calls and it's not gonna start now
Feels like it doesn't matter how hard I try
'Cause I'm just not the good guy

"Blah, blah," you say it like it's easy
Like anyone could get it, could do it
I don't want any of your fucking white lies
none of your sympathy advice

By the morning I find myself writing another one
By the evening I find it futile again and throw it all away

I could tell you how I feel but I'd rather you never know
I don't wanna die alone but I'd rather turn off my phone
I could tell you how I feel but I'd rather you never know
I don't wanna die alone but I'd rather turn off my phone